>>3984255
i find deeper meaning contemplating nature and art, cultivating my knowledge and talents, developing as a person, being creative, enjoying wholesome food, spending time with friends and family, having fun, listening to music, playing instruments, singing my soul out, sometimes introspecting with the aid of psychedelics. i feel more in touch with life, love and the universe than i ever was when worshiping this made up god. this world and this life are the only ones we're getting and i don't want to miss out on the little beauty and joy it offers more than i already did.
the teen version of me would be horrified by what he's going to become but it doesn't really matter. i'm saddened by what he was and horrified by what he was going to become if he stayed on that path.
i'm glad christianity works for you, for a while i used to think it's the right way for me too but in hindsight it's very obvious it was going to lead me to a place of sadness and self-hate had i stayed on that path.