LIES

I used to confront the few /lit/ GFs I had with pic related when I was younger. We would discuss interesting lit topics and I always tried (in a Nietzschean sense) to confront them with things they would never agree with at face value. The result was always that they stopped being my GF really fast, and got utterly mad insulting good old Neetzsch as a virgin. I thought that confrontations like that build intellectual character and expand our views, I also thought it might be useful to debate things we don't agree with in a purely rhetorical sense.

This even happened with women that didn't resort to such tactics usually. They never allowed themselves to zoom out and look at the broader question. I remember one that was working at an Uni as a history teacher, denying the historicity of "the Greeks got stricter towards women", basically laughing at Neetzsch claiming he made stuff up. A few months later I found the same statement in Paideia by Jaeger and told her about it, as it was interesting to me. I remember her literally belittling me about in the sense of why I keep bringing these things up. Younger me was used to talk about interesting topics that do not concur to the mainstream with Friends, and by extension people we spend a lot of time with and respect. I basically approached her like another man that would be interested in the topic.

It took me time to realize that she was getting mad because I was disrespecting her "authority" as a university professor by being able to find contradictory statements to what she teaches.

I've changed my outlook on things, I'm a published author in my country (not a really popular one but still). When women come at place I let them take pictures in front of my bookshelf to post on social media, I've seen quite a few do that but not one ask to borrow a book or something. When they pretend interest, a usually tell them in a joking way, "oh come on, don't pretend that really interests you", and cut of the conversation. I never talk books or art with women, if I can I claim the books aren't mine and I'm just keeping them there, they are from my dad or something.

I had several girls that I dated for months without them even knowing I wrote a book. Sometimes they find a copy in my flat and they're dumbfounded, in the sense that I didn't tell them, but I feel it really lowers their attraction.

I banged a few arthoes by being a published author though, I did realize that the fact does nothing to promote my success with them, its just the fact they can tell their arthoe friends that they are dating an "author".

It hurts my soul to think I'll never find anybody I'm intimate with that I can really share this interest with openly, but I really feel that women suspect something inherently anti-masculine in all intellectuality and they start losing respect for you.