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>you sound like you've made some good progress anon, hope you wind up getting that job (that would be massive).
Thank you! It would be great as I'd like to fund top surgery revisions and then moving out.
>Feeling like the real non-psychotic you is doing fine is probably going to be a rather big asset for you in terms of managing psychosis long term
That's a very helpful thing to say and gave me a lot to reflect on about how my thought patterns and stress level can spiral. In some cultures, hallucinations are more or less malicious than others, so I think something about your outlook really does affect how you cope with psychosis. That's hopeful to think of, thank you

>my #1 accomplishment is probably moving away from my parents and maintaining as much distance between myself and my family as I can without going no contact.
>being able to walk and talk more like a normal person again, physically
Congrats!! These are both huge things in terms of your functioning and independence so I'm proud of you, those are very huge and I hope things only get better.
>and for standing my ground and fixing my infections on my own when the doctors wouldnt listen is another big one.
I'm glad you recovered from that, infections can be scary. It is way harder than it should be to get medical professionals to listen to you at times than it deserves to be, I'm glad you're ok despite it
>my goal was to get away and become as independent as possible and this is far more progress than I had thought possible, just not enough to be sustainable yet. there is still work to be done and I can't feel a sense of victory yet for that reason.
I think you deserve to congratulate yourself and feel proud even if the time to lay back and take it easy isn't yet. The burn out comes a lot faster if you aren't kind and encouraging to yourself at times like you would be to a friend. Seriously, good job anon