>>521137972
It doesn't matter. In the end I'm just an idiot that cant look people in the eyes because its fucking intense to me and that still talks too fast trying to go along a racing stressed and anxious mind, and no one never will think about it that way.
People will think that I'm tweaking because they see a fag looking at everything except the fucking eyes in front of its face and stuttering 2 of every 5 words or simply having my mouth go
>Ok, fuck this, you are acting all retarded and shit and I dont want to do anything with it
And be absolutely unable to talk, with my mouth closed, my vocal chords making a gutural noise that would be a word if my mouth worked, try to painfully start to talk with three failed retarded faces, open jaw, but mouth shut, making noises. Then stopping, sighting and mentally dealing with how much of a retard I am making of myself to then in a crushing silence, think of another word to begin the sentence because I can't now say the previous one or my mouth doesn't work.

And I dont want it to have a diagnose and take a pill becausenits pretty bad as it is.