It is not technically necessary to meditate every morning day and night.
It is not technically necessary to practice retention to undergo the internal alchemical proccess
It is not technically necessary to fast
To pray
Or any number of methods scraped together from the lost information om from the last time we reached this point in the cycle.
It can all be done with just understanding how it works and then applying it willfully.
>What do I do?
Become aware of all negative thought patterns, reactions, mental patterns and speech, held hatred, lists of enemies, violent fantasies of destruction, self imposed limitations, ideas that you cannot understand any form for any reason.
Instead
Cultivate the faith in the internal kingdom the imagination. If you do not have an imagination, cultivate faith to belief in repetition and use the external world to simulate internal visualization.
It just takes the effort to fight the hard mental battle of self correcting every day. But as you do it the subconscious learns. It becomes easier. Eventually you can maintain desirable expectations and assumptions 80% of the time.
So long as you understand that you don't need to know why the light switch makes the light come on. Only that it does if you press it. You can have everything or be anything and watch your entire neighborhood and everyone's situations around you bend and upend themselves like the matrix.
It doesn't truly matter how you induce the desired emotional states. Only that their base assumption is deliverance of all things you think are good.