>>23600742
you're totally right but my mind shuts down and i dont know how to stop that from happening
especially if they're pretty and its gets even worse if she's my type, the tomboyish and nerdy ones are too cute desu

want to know how it gets even worse?
the ladies i'm able to actually talk to think im just some confident good looking guy who can whoever i want and and then they turn cold on me
its ridiculously backwards and frustrating
im 42, i dont know if this is going to be fixable
Q___Q

>>23600826
while i cant talk to them, some are persistent enough to where i've actually been able to get through and have a realtionship with some
however i've had my heart crushed multiple times and while i am grateful for the experience the last one sent me into a 6 years long NUMB depression, and i thought i would never be happy again, true despair
i'm back to my old self in the past year though, so thats good
working on making actual friends for now which seems to actually be happening
i'm deeply emotional and passionate person, hopefully i'll find someone that wont do that to me again and on my wavelength
we'll see
and thank you :) <3

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