>>33517711
Because your defective brain can't feel pleasure in normal ways. Anhedonia. It's for life.
Be wise, you have only one body for your whole life, have fun in your trip.

The other night I realized nostalgia is cancer, the past don't exist, and in fact, all things happen for some reason... totally.
So torturing yourself about things that are.. nothing... consumes precious though time.
So leave your memories behind and just go.

Have a good day anon.