not having a great afternoon. nothing i wanted to watch on the streaming stuff, just let my mom have the tv. tried to nap again but couldn't. watched a little glowievision but it's depressing, stuff i already know too. did play with my dog but he's gotten old and he doesn't really get the zoomies anymore. i suppose football and gym will salvage the rest of the day, and i'm making a lot of money. guess i just have the blues again. trying to remember it's a rebuilding and growth year for me, getting back into shape, kicking the weed, growing my finances, next year will be better. i hope to be in a loving relationship with my crush, but i know that's up to her, out of my control. mom wants to go on a cruise to hawaii and australia, i have to decide whether or not to go on that soon. don't want to explain to her that i'm waiting for my internet crush to return my feelings, just told her i'll think about it. wanna get to california too, but the weather is starting to turn, it's not really very pleasant in the fall/winter. so i'm looking at 6 more months of being home, which i guess will allow me to get ultra fit, make a bunch on the market, but i really thought i'd be in the middle of a passionate love affair by now. oh well. not giving up, know what i really want, know there's more to accomplish. but i am gloomy i can't deny that. my dreams have been so lovely today and i guess the discrepancy between real life and sleep life is starting to hurt.
thinking about trading dkng tomorrow, put in a hammer candle today and the start of football season, seems like a good gamble, we'll see how things set up. russell has been outperforming recently and is lagging the other indices on the year as well, and it's last all time high was in 2021, think that's a good spot to be right now too. be well everyone.