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Saturn is hitting the 6h iirc, I don't have a job either even though I was a job hopper for fun before the transit hit. Seems like it's hitting all of us differently, trading is a good income for me.
Your purpose doesn't revolve around work but rather what you can provide for people in different ways, things like chores etc if you're living with roommates or whatever. Gigs can help too but again, work is not the point of living. You were not born to slave away for someone else. Your cancer mars might make you feel like you need to respond to a higher up or that it's easy for you to feel lower than other people based on status comparisons. Don't do that. Comparison is the killer of joy.
I'm sorry that you went through that with not only her but your work as well..
Generational examples of love make it seem like there's no way out for you, right? But again, your chart is literally calling you to be a breaker of chains, something unique (your fate is literally in Sagittarius in the 7th house, freedom/justice/partnerships/love/etc). You were never meant to carry this tradition of being in a relationship "for the sake of things".
North nodes are basically your purpose in life but that doesn't make it easy, my north node is in Taurus aka the chilled out sign. I don't think I seem very chill. I'm very hypervigilant and uptight and serious as a person. Its extremely difficult for me to relax but I've been slowly seeing *what* triggers such behavior from me and *why* it happens when it does and how I can stop it or at least calm it down a little. Growth is not linear.
You have to learn a balance to things in your life and slowly, treat work as work and anything outside of it as.. Not work. Not contractual. Not professional. Not energy draining. Etc. You must ask yourself "How can I let them and myself know that I take this as seriously as my career/aspirations in life without making it so... Business like? How can I make this something I truly love?"