If you have the time for reading, the long story is there was someone from /soc/ who was interested in talking to me. She just became 18 and wanted to talk because she also lives in Germany (similar timezones are good for chatting so that one isn't sleeping while the other is awake) and wanted someone to talk to as she has a sun allergy and must stay inside almost all day (could be a fed, I know). I was looking for someone to talk to because I stare at my walls everyday practically. I also have no friends and want sincere friends who I can talk about my most honest feelings with, eventually even a romantic partner with whom I'd share everything. Everything was fine and dandy on the first day with Anonette and she wanted to chat again the next day, yesterday night. We talked and as the conversation got mildly political, I felt the need to share my honest feelings with her that I'm a racist, sexist, homophobe. She felt either unnerved or that she doesn't agree with my "personal truths" so we agreed to end it there.
I know I screwed up the execution. But my question still is: where are the qt 3.14 racist Anonettes? Honestly, I'm not white, so I don't know what are my chances. But I still want to try. I'm improving and want to find someone who likes me too and has the same values as me. Like, the ideal 20yo. aryan princess, strumming a lyre in a hidden grove – but not literally, just at heart. But when it seems you have to watch a treadmill of every young woman get holed out by niggers first until she's a mess of a person in their thirties witha bunch of children they can't raise properly, it makes you wonder "What's the point? I don't even have a chance."
