>>7681721
I just realized after those 5 years I wasn't really improving much anymore and yet my output still hasn't caught up to my tastes. And compared to my peers, I was garbage even though a lot of them has drawn in less years than me. I was blindly drawing with no structure and one day I just realized I'm never gonna overcome this plateau if I don't actually properly study my fundamentals. This is the result of those 5 years of plateauing. Just mediocre garbage. After doing a few courses, I actually felt like I was improving again.