I obviously got laid off but I just didn't want the family in the restaurant. I don't care if they had to only use the bathroom, you're not coming in. I don't really see what I did wrong, but maybe it's because I'm a sperg.

I thought and thought. Teetering on the edge nihilism thinking that there is no meaning to this life so it was better off not to exist. Then wisdom spoke in silence making it clear. From source of creation which gave the seed of life sprouted raw conciousness, from there sprouted intellect, then thought, the logos, then wisdom, etc. I pondered on standing in meditation. Depth and profoundnuity precedes the things before all of us. Like a hand reaching to help a benefactor touched my conciousness breaking it down to a frequency which I could witness unfiltered. I was not alone for several others were with us. I was existence and existence was me, in there was a love an understanding. I exist because of I. Not little old me. A higher Self which was more than I. You can at the very least live for yourself. that first and high emination which proceeds from the uneffible, unutterable, source from which all things spawned is you. We made ourselves and come from on high. Its all you. You exist for yourself. To go beyond this profound depth which must have existed before other eminations of intellect/ mind/thinker; one would cease to be you. One stops becomming and God starts becomming. My time was brief I just felt as though I had found my answer to purpose of existence in existence itself a pure higher conciousness which we all share. An innate reasoning through only experience not mind could shed light on. Its all for you. How? Through God. Why? You are existence conciousness. Dare I say gods. Children of the Most High. Then deep real and tangible metaphysics that out of rational and natural reactions formed creating more emination spiraling down to this reality we live in here. The universe and its laws.

I pondered on now; essence precedes existence. But what if existence preeceeded essences even in a world of pure reason and forms. What if we are not just essences but each a perspective if even the firm of conciousness must precede the form of essence. Precreation.