Why do I desire to cheat. I've cheated behind her back so many times with other women emotionally, but there's nothing wrong with her. I feel like an asshole. She always believed me when I said I would change and I meant it every time I fucking said it to her but I just couldn't help but talk to other women. I still care for her and never wanted to hurt her, but this time was too much and the last time. She never wants to speak to me again. Of course. It's my fault anyway idk why I'm being a mopey faggot