6month hrt vs 2,5y, 30y

I've done everything I can during these two years of HRT to try and fix my disgusting body and face.

I'm tired of wearing a binder and putting in so much effort to try and look normal; I feel like I just look like nothing at all.

I go out trying to be as androgynous as possible while I wait for my FFS in three months (and hair growth). I'd at least like to look like a "normal" trans woman.