Ame-chan, please teach yourself to cook! It's easy- use the internet for recipes- it's fun- it's healthy and wholesome- it will make you a more attractive person and partner! Please please please!!! Autism is not an issue, as you can cook by strictly following procedure and taking things slowly, one at a time (like, don't fry x while cutting y)
Dreams... I have a dream diary with hundreds, over a decade almost. Lately I've had very few, paradoxically because I'm healing my IBS. Yep- the worst you are physically and mentally the more dreams you have and remember. Because your dream is shallow and often interrupted, and each interruption is an opportunity to remember. I can tell when I was most unhappy and sick by the amount of dreams I had!

do u only have 1 ame pic? Here, have another.
You clearly have to change something. Maybe ask your second half for suggestions? If he tells you he will be happier when you start jogging, or learning a language, or an instrument, or getting educated, or working, would you do that for him? If not then you don't love him at all...
Love should build you up, not tear you down!

>society would rather have us attempt to suicide and be locked away in a psych ward than lock us away with a cute nerdy bf to fawn over
its over