>>33841307
Becoming fluent in Chinese and being immersed in their culture won't fix anything. To the Chinese, I'm not a pure Han. I'm still a mongrelmutt.
Which, this reminds me of another bleak thing—no matter what, even if I do reproduce, my offspring will have it even worse. Breeding with a European or Asian girl will still be racemixing either way. Breeding with another Hapa will also just result in children with no identity.
Yet I have my biological urges. The desire to build and raise a family.
This is cursed.