This whole shitty sonic threads of yours is like some sect of masochists, maybe it didn't occur to one of the other intelligent people that no normal person, whether a woman or a friend, would want to listen to such sadness all day, or would have to go crazy themselves, or would have to ride with you for a short while and bring you down to earth? Coming in here to the cesspool for 5 minutes makes me feel depressed, let alone sitting with guys like you all my life. How would you like to create a healthy relationship with such an approach? It would also be torment for you, a typical toxic relationship. Another thing. Appearance, money, position, the other half gives a lot in life, but without inner peace, all of this is for nothing, because mental problems won't let you enjoy it, if a miracle happened and you got everything you wanted, I guess your relationship would end stormily after a few months, you would be fired from work, and you would be left like a slob without a penny because everything would be spent on stupidity. This is what mental disorders lead to, and finding a woman doesn't cure them. You can get out of them on your own and for yourself only and exclusively, by going to therapy or to some psychiatrist who will tell you what and how. I don't greet you.