>>41444624
Dont know why people calling me a maoist.. iv never read any of his work. Im just a free thinker

>>41444630
Life.. pressure... and im sad that im bitter which makes me more bitter and it makes toxic which makes me push people away which makes me more butter and its a spiral of self hate and hatred of the world and all its values and all the ties to the lovely people i view more and more as weaknesses as i push them away and so i become even more bitter and sad and lonely with no motivation to even tidy my room.. im crestfallen......
I want to love just in the sense of the family, but even my family i push away........ i deserve to be alone and it hurts to be alone but i don't fit in i dont connect with others i just want to be lrft alone..
Its probably for the best to push everyone away.. they all die eventually anyway.. better rip the bandaid off.. connections just lead to suffering..

>>40024890
No i think i have some kinda mental illness where people who want me i dont want at all, but once it seems like they're out of my life i start to crave them 1000x more it makes no sense its like ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh i miss her... i yearn ...v_v


Im so foolish.... am i cursed to make same mistakes again and again forever... is that my afterlife... just reliving the same mistake again n again...grim....