>>83061420
it's too much effort for who i've become. i don't want to meet friends or parents. i don't want to have to do the social dance perfectly just to be half-valued, if that. i don't want to hear about your normal day or whatever surface-level drama there is in your circles. but i don't want to be the center of your world either. i want someone to experience and watch the world with as an equal. not a power couple or a shut-in couple. i don't think that exists for people like me anymore, so i would rather be alone and do what i want in solitude