>>82393893
>I guess any psychedelics will destroy my life though
NTA But I don't see harm in trying psychedelics on small doses. Most of people who "didn't come back" from trips did high doses which caused a psychotic response (and, sure, were predesposed to mental illness/psychosis). Unless you want to be absolutely safe, in which case abstinance is always the answer, you can allow yourself to experiment with small doses of psychedelics and see where they leave you mentally and make your choices from there; you don't really know if you're actually susceptible to psychosis or mental illness even though family history is a factor. I'm just not convinced that one trip will unlock a box full of demons inside your mind forever and ever. In my experience, schizophrenia (which is just chronic psychosis with some extra steps) is gradual and develops over time in a mentally harmful environment rather than hit you full force in one go and ruin your life for good. There can be episodes, for sure, but it's unlikely (not impossible, if you're really susceptible) to happen from one trip and most of the time are temporary and will not develop into chronic psychosis; and then you'll really know to stay away. My point is that it'll be a shame missing the wonderful world of psychs cause of fear, but whatever you choose. Goodluck!
P.S: abilify is a hellish drug from satan himself that dosen't treat shit and actually makes you feel like you're really crazy; the side-effects are worse than any psycho attack I've ever had by far. Don't try it hehe.