Christ almighty I didn't manage as many posts as I wanted to but here we go, the first batch is done.
Have moths.
>>41530137
>I'm learning the best thing to do isn't to try and overcome it by feeding into one of the kinda externalising things I always go to to try and regain a feeling of control.
100% agreed, in my experience externalizing works if the thing you worry about is in other people's heads, but it doesn't really help with control, or with questions about the self. I often struggle to articulate the line to be drawn but I hope I'm making sense.
>It's so hard to find worth in amongst the tangle of all the ways of being that I've forced upon myself over the years.
>I feel like I have to fix myself and I'm doing so much to do that but idk.
>Will keep trying to have good days and be kind to myself on the bad days.
>And imagine others might be kind to me on the bad days too.
I wish you nothing but the very best Anon, even on days it is hard. If you want, you can recount the good things you do for yourself, big and small. Every one an accomplishment, a little reminder that you are indeed doing well. Better than it feels.
>>41531078
HOLY SHIT, congrats on escaping conservative shithell! Yes, environment can dictate our well being to an insane extent. I am so happy for you, Anon. I wish you nothing but the best.
>>41532423
>what the fuck? it went well. she called me handsome
I'm happy for you, Anon! And yes, I'll be looking forward to your updates, we're rooting for you.
>>41535196
Yep, since 2022.
>>41536663
You often get caught up in these spirals, Anon.. is it okay I prod you to try and learn more about other things you have been up to?