i have been a recluse and a neet since i was 16 till i was 21. after my 21th birthday i decided i was done and i started doing things, going outside, talking to people, travelling, im back to school and im studying for a degree, i started playing guitar and i took care of my appearance, went to a nye party, and all that. its been a year and a half now, but i feel like nothing has changed in me, and i feel like its too late to do anything meaningful. too late to get good at guitar and join a band, too late to make friends, too late to have a dream too late to have love, too late to experience anything that isn't the suffering of being an adult. im scared all im doing is for nothing.