Seems like all of my interests for being in a relationship with a woman are just caused by hormones and not an actual need for a relationship.

I have an outdoors job and I see many attractive women on the street which makes me feel I want a relationship but after I come home and masturbate to porn all of this desires stop and my thinking shifts that being in a relationship with a woman and having a family has far more downsides than benefits, I don't have any friends and I never hang out with anyone and very rarely do I feel lonely.

Anyone else have a similar experience?