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>my issue was something I was born with but it wasn’t autism
First, I'm sorry to hear of your challenges. I use "autism" as an enormous catch-all, not so much a set of ICD codes. I think all sorts of developmental struggles are caused by environmental toxicity (Reggio's "Qaatsi" trilogy of movies showed this quite movingly).

My own son seems to be much like you and your son. But we can't go to any medical "professional" because the only treatment now allowed for anything is a lifetime of dependence on deadly but (((profitable))) pharmaceuticals.

I want to add that genetics seems to play much more of a role in this than some realize. Working with alcoholics and drug addicts has had me realize those dysfunctional behaviors are the *expression* of a genetic predisposition. The horrible childhoods aren't the cause of the mental illnesses that follow, those horrible childhoods were themselves *the behavioral expression of the genetics that codes for them*. A startling inversion of cause and effect, and essential for treating diseases like alcoholism.

I also say that because it might lead you to a bit of peace about your mother, if only the understanding she may have been as much a victim as you, as were the many generations before her.

Good luck with your son, he sounds like he's doing well - because he has a dad like you. It may not help much, but if your mom hadn't been the one to accept the pain of wounding her own unborn child (you), you might not have been wounded in the ways necessary for you to awaken to how to help your own son. Your painful wounding was also your son's healing gift - the long-awaited healing of perhaps generations of you.

My best wishes to you all.