>>83031140
>it doesn't matter what im doing if i always feel like shit at the end of the day
Things will be fun again and you will feel better too. That spark can reignite even if it seems like its not going too so don't give up on it okay?
>i don't even want anything else other than a "normal" life at this point
so you do have a reason for things that you recognize. You will get there. Its something many on here are working towards so don't forget that you are not alone.