I honestly think there is a solid argument that i am the most pathetic person here. Not the biggest failure by any means,not even close to that, just the biggest coward/wimp/pussy/pushover etc.
>5'3 50kg man
>white brit so already ingrained to apologise for everything no matter what and be a bitch
>clumsy and awkard as humanly possible fall over my own feet, pour beans on myself etc
>cant speak without stuttering and autist voice
>no friend group or anything really so barely talk other than to parents
>used to get bullied like properly, bloody noses pured boiling water etc.
>cant talk to people anymore without eyes watering
>started crying from someone laughing in public assuming theyre laughing at me
>cried in front of a teenage roadman then gave him money to go away
>only go outside now when its raining/dark out of fear
>then petrified of everyone and thing i see and the dark
>hide in my house and just sit here too scared to do anything on halloween as it is all horror
Like there has to be a point where i man up eventually, but at the moment i am absolutely failing.