in 2017 I saw a video of someone putting their penis onto a chopping board and cutting it off with a kitchen knife.
I am 20 now and it still haunts me. it has been replaying in my head every day since.
I didn't understand why at the time. They are stupid? They got dared to do it? They were in psycosis?
I understand why now because I also hate being a man. I hate sex and I want to be trans.

Why am i supposed to remember the gore i saw 8 years ago.