I think i need to step back from watching streams and posting here. I feel my heart growing more fond of Runie as of late, it started impacting my personal life. I found myself going on a date with my coworker and thinking to myself, while listening and pretending to be interested, "why can't other women be as "catchy" as her?". Today is my free day, i was supposed to meet up with my friends, but i ended up watching old movies and contemplating my life instead. It is not to say that i was thinking that one day Runie will jump out of my monitor, and we'll live happily ever after, but, i guess, i was still drawn to her enormous charisma. Searching for a woman that will show interest in me is already hard enough, but i feel like an asshole for not reciprocating their earnest feelings. I can't stop loving her, because im not in a relationship, and i also can't start a relationship, because dating a woman while being enamoured by Runie feels like an immoral thing to do. I don't hate women, i simply find them to be very uncharismatic compared to her.
Phase connect.