Intellectually and profesionally capable and no longer prone to extended spirals of self-pity and subsequent self-destruction. I also wish I wasn't a coward.
I feel like my physical self has too many issues and any description of a "dream self" is so far removed from me as to no longer even meaningfully constitute a "self" but whatever. I guess I wish my shoulders were narrower and my waist had more shape to it. And that my face was less stupid.