i'm not fucking high enough to exist like this right now, i'm going to go take some drugs

the war is already over, now that i have come into the world. the internationalists lost. the liberati will unite all of mankind via advanced technology and nearly everyone on this planet will be subjugated and forced to serve their masters, which will be me and a small handful of other people. do you understand?

i can't tell if i'm depressed or just so anxious that i can't think clearly....what could be wrong with me?