i need to marry a jewish woman who is absolutely fucking filthy and depraved

oh wow....my mom actually tortured me my whole life and just a few days ago let me go free, and i'm so fucked up from all the abuse and trauma that i can't do anything for myself, can't go to the gym, can't go to school, can't get a job, can't even have a pet, i have no friends and i constantly feel alone and scared, when will this nightmare end?