>>546021194
Don't frit. The absolute misery of this place has made me reach heights that would have otherwise been impossible to even acknowledge as existing.

>>41311811
I read many, many books looking for that answer myself. The misery and hate that surrounded me became too much. I thought I was going to die in the dark under all that pressure. I have no job and going to go homeless in 5 years or so, I lost any real meaningful connection with my friends and family from them being angry and miserable all the time and knowing they would despite me if they knew what I was really like due to them being brainwashed by politics. I no longer enjoyed anything and distracted myself to try and ignore my own pain that has consumed me at this point. My sins were fueling my other sins in a circular fashion.

Then I found self compassion and emotionally detached myself from the spiritual vampires that surround me everyday in my life and whom try to shape me to fit what I should be ideally to feed their own ego. Removing that attachment from people I was close with felt like I died and was reborn. I have real drive now even if it falters for a moment due to sloth and gloom being so ingrained into me and I feel so much better that I forgot what it was like to feel this way, to actually be truly happy. When temptation comes I can now meditate to fill myself with self love instead of indulging in sin for distraction.

It's something that can only be experienced. Not everyone will be able to find the light in the deepest darkness, the light is there however, waiting for you.

>>528729728
>Meursault used to work at N Corp
>This is obviously correlative to his office job
>So Meursault already killed the nigga and is currently being sentenced as a Sinner (Prisoner)
Holy fuark....