thread about to die so i can admit that i really hate that i can't just be a cute uwu puppygirl who doesn't understand all this politics stuff act just repeats whatever her boyfriend tells her. i wish i didn't care so much about everything all the time. i hate that I resent the part of me that hates the part of me that resents the part of me that has to say something about all of this shit instead of just keeping my mouth shut and smiling. not even agreeing. just not being disagreeable. and even thought of that is so gross but i want it. the brain feels impossible to untangle sometimes