> be me
> 17yo. Conventionally attractive male
> Grow up in priviliged family that abuses me physically and psychologically
> Get groomed by a 22yo uni student
> Get dumped cuz I run my course
> Be depressed for 2 years
> Meet raging athletic qt femboy on tf2
> Become best friends
> Fall in love
> Has similar upbringing. Under threat of being sent back to his home country if he fails uni
> Teach him calisthenics, muay thai and psychology
> He slowly becomes the stereotypical submissive boywife w cute autism
> Want to be with him for the rest of my life
> Make him happy and follow it up by making him miserable because trauma
> "You're an 8/10. Get abs and ur 9. Get buff and ur 10."
> One day I dump him via text while he's moving furniture around the house the whole day.
> Act like nothing happened and try to act normal in the evening
> Loses his shit and tells me how Im a manipulative piece of trash that sucks his will to live and sanity away
> "Well there is no value for happiness if you will manipulate me and destroy my sanity and throw me away then take me back whenever you want, im not a toy"
> Cuts contact. Never see him again.
> Become my own biggest hater
> Get abs and get buff to cope
> Evey time I see a pullup bar, I wanna tie a noose to it
> Every time I see a dumbell, I imagine getting beaten to death with it
> Keep going because the workouts make me forget for a brief moment

So why do u lift, anons ? I'd love to hear it desu