i feel like a really bad person for having a crush on my friend cus he is bi but I don't think I'm his type in guys. he's kind of a reddit bisexual muscle mommy + femboys type and I'm not a pretty guy like that so it feels embarassing and creepy of me cus he'll probably never like me. i've been called a femboy before if I dress up ig, I did yesterday to try to impress him but he was the only person I didn't get a reaction out of lol... just a very generic "looks nice" but idk I shouldn't care. we're gonna meet up a few days (not alone) n I wanna doll myself up as an evil nefarious scheme to get him to give me a second glance but I'm just not confident im attractive. i hate being gay lol, i never get the person I like