I never was able to move on . And it's been around 5 years now. All I could do is distort how I thought about it to protect myself from the love I feel for him. But the love never went away and i have hurt ever since.
He can never change just as I can ever change. This is a core truth about ourselves. The core never changes because it is physical. When two people are made for each other, a thread is tied between them. When we separate the thread becomes tight and tugs on our empty spot where each other reside and causes us pain.
For others they can move on sure. But those relationships are nothing like the one I have with him. Most will never experience this in their lifetime because they will not meet their person. I'm so lucky I did but I've made mistakes. I have a feeling it will be okay but I need to take steps to do that.