so I'm trying to figure out how to get a friend of mine to break up with his new gf, I HATE her and her existence has ruined my Saturdays as my friend only wants to hang out on Sundays now instead of both days like we used to before the appearance of this creature leaving me with nothing to do on my Saturdays, plus she ruined my birthday weekend with this so my hatred of her is never ending

please let the suggestions be realistic, i don't want it to be too obvious what I'm doing, I'm currently at a zero for ideas

So I'm trying to figure how fucked I am
most people in my life have been ignoring me or ghosting me recently, even my best friend his ignoring me for his new GF
I've been self medicating with alcohol the last several days but my behavior on alcohol has gotten harder even for me to control with being heavily erratic and self destructive
my whole attitude has been very self destructive recently with some days being nothing but my brain on fire with despair and a hollowness that I cant even put into words
I'm to the point where I no longer really care for myself and my well being while hoping for death through natural causes at this point
should I seek some form of help or should I accept this hell that I am in and keep praying for death?