>>40970329
i miss how i felt when i was 13 and had lolcow potential while briefly being the most hated person in the entire steven universe fandom. i dont think ill ever come back from that, i keep looking for that same feeling everywhere but nothing feels the same anymore. yet i still feel like i dont deserve to be a normal human being, i have to be some kind of chris chan adjacent because thats what i was always meant to be. but Also because its just funny to ruin myself over and over again