Hi I'm a tranny

I want to talk about fantasies of being abused by much older men, sometimes they force to marry them, sometimes it's a sex teacher that I "have to obey" they always reshape my rectum to fit they big cocks.
the men are older because of the old ugly bastard thing
it sounds very very weird but it's almost like I'm turned on by being fucked by someone I'm disgusted by
I guess I'm into rape but any kind of coercion does it for me