My girlfriend teased me for being a country bumpkin. I heard a noise outside so I jumped up and stared at the doorway cause Im used to keeping a lookout for bears but it was another person.

>tfw I am prettier than my gf but have to stay with her because one closer to my looksmatch will have social requirements for me like friends/social media clout/interacting with her family and I am literally diagnosed autism

I'm sick of being smiled at by pretty girls and then having to go home and look at my gf with her goblin head and dorsal hump and stupid tattoos

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Can I ask why you haven't killed yourself yet? For me it used to be that I didn't want to make my mother sad, but I don't care about that anymore. Nowadays its just a sense of emptiness, I feel like I'm already dead. I am completely apathetic to life, suicide is just something I'm too tired to do. Its easier to just be alive and do nothing than to die as of now.