Goodnight!
>>41557675
>I want a bf so bad that I can't enjoy any progress i make or good things I do for myself or my achievements.
Hey, I'm not gonna tell you you are wrong for having emotional needs. You crave an intimate, romantic relationship. Of course, the annoying thing is having to begrudgingly accept that they can build the foundation for being able to build such a relationship to begin with. Do you have places to look for one?
>>41545600
>connection with them not being strong enough for me to care and shame about just ghosting them
Ah, okay some of that is the adhd angle that things that are important but not urgent (IBNUs, I think I picked that up from howtoadhd) tend to get lost most easily. The connection thing however is of course a circular aspect. The more time you invest the easier it would get. A stupid thing you could try, that works for me at least, is add urgency to contacting select few people by essentially making it a habit to do so at a dedicated time. Then the flow of the conversation can carry things like planning to hang out more organically.
As for the dullness:
Hmm.. were there any particular kinds of story you were drawn towards? Particular subjects in school that were stimulating?
>I heard it's a adhd thing
It is, textbook. I have read this so often I can vouch for it. I need to ask because I am a bit out of it to cross check older posts, but are you being treated for the time being? We have some resources on top, it might be worth to dig there for you to see what actionable stuff you can make use of.