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>qott
losing a lot. losing hard I guess. I don't believe in determinism. generally feeling like a total and utter failure because I'm doing very poorly academically. I think I need to go to therapy and ask a shrink if there's anything legitimately wrong with my head (apart from being transgender) from all the trauma
>qott 2
yeah aliens are fun to think about

it's been a long time since I came on here and it's probably for the best, website just tanks my mood despite how much i like the place. I'll hit 2 years HRT in just about 96 days. I'm happy I haven't killed myself. I've gone to uni for almost three years now and I still haven't made any friends. it's really embarassing. turning 21 was scary, I'm still very young but I feel like I've been wasting my life. I picked up art very recently, I want to prove to myself that I can be good at something, I've been mediocre or worse in everything, i don't expect to get good quickly, it'll probably take me something like a decade or more.