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>I become the weird friend who just awkwardly hangs out.
because you have no prevailing personality. You have no self-esteem to the point that people just walk all over you. You are too afraid to call people out or talk shit when it is needed on your behalf. You can't be so nice all the time, humans need SOME drama. If you are being shit on, talk shit back. If you feel you aren't being invited, yell it in the group chat or gathering.
>with social circles I myself formed.
you have a thing for getting people together but are too afraid of being part of the group. Either because you are too selfish to give to the benefit of the group or are too uncaring. Its either you are part of the group or you are not. You are choosing not to be- so they treat you as such, very simple.
>I don't know what I'm doing
yes you do, you lie to yourself too. If you are unhappy about a situation do everything in your power to make it so you can be. If you don't learn from your mistakes, youll repeat them dummy.