How do I get over an obsession with an ebin? I keep telling myself it'll get better but it isn't. I told myself I'd get used to seeing them together hanging out but every time I do I get this knot in my stomach. Whenever I see Saran post a pose of herself with Shan on twitter it makes me clench my fist and pound the armrest of my chair. Every time I see Shan run up to Saran in public and they stand there targeting each other idle for hours, it makes me run out into the parking lot of my apartment and scream into the night. It should've been me and all I had to do was suck it up and ask. I go to bed seeing them meet up then wake up to see them log off. I hate myself, its just a video game threadcrush. Why does she make me feel like this? Even my irl ex girlfriend didn't fuck me up like this. I think I'm cooked sisters.
