>>514167632
I once read a short story by Chuck Palahniuk about a gifted and promising academic youth. He went to the nurses office at his school to grab the portable defibrillator and put a paddle on either side of this head and zapped himself retarded. Afterwards he was praised for simple tasks and told he was brave, strong, etc. This started a defibrillator epidemic at his school of other students following his example.
I don't really know what happiness means or how to really find. Maybe the kid in OPs webem knows better than me.