>>40739610
Oh Oh, I have traits of avoidant on top of my traits of borderline! despite the name I think I’m a little more avoidant than bpd desu, bpdmoder just sounds better than unspecified-personality-disorder-w/traits-of-avoidant-and-borderline-moder.

>qott1
prolly bc my mom was abusive and emotionally volatile, my brother took out his anger on me, and my dad just didn’t care—so I grew mistrustful of people and learned to hide when things got scary. And then on top of that I learned to not show any of my emotions as I got older (which has made it hard for ppl at the facility I live at to trust me w my history of suicide attempts)

>qott2
I think I’m pretty good at hiding it but yah I have a really hard time taking social risks and few things make me more scared than close relationships. I really want to sit w friends when I have lunch or hang out casually but I don’t feel like people want me around until I’m explicitly invited and even then I have a hard time believing it