>>82266770
i think its cool, but i don't think i could accept a woman taking care of my household for me the way i am now.
i take care of all my own needs and its been that way my whole life, my ego wouldn't allow me to have a woman or anyone take over that except maybe my mom?
this might be related to my attachment style or whatever but im always trying to prove to myself i don't need anyone to affirm or aid in my existence just the thought makes me want to throw up a little in my mouth.
alot of guys talk about how their gfs take care of them in the moment i feel really happy and loving that they have that but later i think about it and i think to myself "you faggot you need a second mom? are you a retard?".
its not jealousy because i don't really feel that honestly but i just can't accept needing another person to add value to my life while simultaneously kind of wanting it also.
maybe this is the long term effects of solitude
