>>82765815
I've gone through 20 years of life without a single relationship. Sometimes I think that's better, because I know that I'd die a thousand small deaths every day if I were to be subjected to the dynamics of modern relationships, 'microcheating', all that bullshit.

I've accepted I'm 'too much' for most women. I have the perfect dates planned in my head. My ultimate happiness in life would be to lay next to a woman that loves me, on a couch or something.

I'm not even that ugly, I'm 5'10, I was in Mensa and skipped 2 grades.. I used to hate myself, but recently I've appreciated some parts of myself that most other men don't have. I've given up on actively seeking a relationship. I don't go out much these days, but maybe I'll somehow meet someone.

My only problem is, as OP pointed out, a 'deep-seated disgust for women's sexuality.' The blowjob thing or whatever.