I wanna get cucked so badly it's insane. My gf's ex is this well-built black guy she dated from her junior to senior year of college. I've opened up to her that I'd be okay if she went back to him for sex, and we've even done roleplay where she cheats on me. Yet she doesn't want to do it for real. I literally feel like I'm going crazy being so close to fulfilling my fantasy yet so far away.