I swing wildly between just wanting to be near someone, sitting around, watching something we like
To violent sexual thoughts like so
I want simple little intimacy of being side by side with someone on the couch
But then I want their full weight on top of me and fingers in my mouth
While also feeling wanted, respected, and safe
My dream is an intense TPE relationship, but I am way too broken
For any kind of relationship, let alone one of that calibre
It shouldn't matter, it's stupid, but a part of me is really pained by that